(Taken with instagram)
(Taken with instagram)
And If My Heart Should Somehow Stop
I listen to this song and think about the fondest memories we shared together.
Almost letting you go. Knowing that I’m giving up the very first guy I ever fell in love only because we knew that distance was going to eat this relationship up. It was a mistake to even bring this up. It was a mistake to even think this relationship couldn’t last. It was a mistake to ever think leaving you would make it better. It hurts everyday that I cant see/touch you. But I dont care because loving you is more powerful than any feeling that I have occured with. My heart would rip open and explode if I saw you with another girl, and I’d know your heart would rip to pieces if you saw me with another guy. Just thinking about it makes me cry. You make me smile. You make me feel beautiful. You make me feel loved, and that’s all that I can ask for. We can pass through the distance. “Good things come to those who wait” yeah I believe in that, if something like distance doesn’t even bother us much anymore and were happy, wait til we actually are together, together.
You don’t know how badly I want this. THIS kind of love that never dies out. I don’t wanna be the grumpy old wife who yells at their husband all the time or ignores him giving the silent treatments. I wanna be the old wife who loves their husband more than she loved him yesterday. I want to be able to laugh with him, hold hands in the park, have a wheelchair race, take pictures of each other, give him old smoochy kisses, and just cuddle in bed. I want to be able to tell him I love him more and more each day. And if he were deaf, I’d want to write it out on a giant poster with lots of colors, so I could place it somewhere he would lay eyes on it every hour. I want to die old, happily in love.